At a Crossroads

You have ever have one of those days where your mind never stops racing? On this same day you will find your self crying watching a UNICEF commercial.  This day usually feels like it will never end and you cant seem to just get your shit together.  This day usually ends with a bottle of some kind, whether its a bottle of wine or some kind of sleeping pills. We all have these days and we are always so thankful when they are over, not only are we thankful but those around us are too.  Well this describes my last 90 days or so.  Blah I know!!
    About a week ago I literally had a nervous breakdown, one that cause to me to hives basically from stress.  This is no way to live.  So I took a long hard look at myself and all feelings and worries I have had the last several months.  I begin to write down which ones where most important to me and what could I do to change them!? 
  
 First and for most I wanted to cut out anything that took up way to much of my time and cause me to alter my mood in any way.  YA know what that was? Yep Social networking it was the first to go!  I told my self I wouldn't delete my twitter or facebook but see how long I could go with out having to status compulsively.  Today makes day 5, and let me tell you I would like to hug myself for making it this long.  For my need to compulsively status I thought I would start a journal, old school I know but it has done wonders for revealing stress.  Also no hard feelings of "why wasn't I invited" to this or that.  Let me just say we got it right the first time journaling is awesome for the mind body and soul!
  

    Headaches, I have had non stop headaches and migraines for the last several weeks too.  I remembered that the last time I was eating super healthy I had not one head ache.  So a few weeks ago I started to eat some what healthier but still had the occasional  soda, candy or take out.  So have some harassing by my sister and co worker I decided I would try weight watchers.  I have never ever been a fan of diets.  That's why I love weight watchers is it teaches you that you can eat anything as long as you stay with in your points.  You will learn very fast that sure you can eat that burger BUT you may use all your points so if your hungry later you better hope those fruits or veggies fill you up.  It teaches you to make smarter choices when it comes to your meals.  Well I finally officially started monday and I can notice a huge difference.  No headache,  and a bunch more energy. 
   Day 1 by far was the easiest, day two just drug on and on and I seems so hungry even though I know I wasn't because I was eating with in my points.  Day 3 was pretty much a breeze, and I even went back to the store with full intentions in getting all the wrong foods and binge.  Yet when I got in the store I felt everyone was staring me down and judging me and so I went and got the healthy foods.  Lets just say I am so glad I got the foods I got too cause they were delish!  
   I look foward to my continued grownth mind body and soul.  I feel so great, not 100% but definitely well on my way.  I hope to share more with you soon.